Below is a copy of Part 2 of an article that I, Steve wrote back in October of 2006 only weeks after my encounter with Jesus that turned my whole life and vision in a different direction. Part 1 had been about all the horrible things that were happening to children all over the world such as human trafficking, being sold by parents into prostitution, child labor camps, hunger, malnutrition, lack of education etc. etc. At the time I though the previous 16 years had been all the preparation needed to fulfill the call but it was only the foundation laid to be able to receive the call. Unknown to me there was another 13 years ahead like a Joseph to be prepared to realistically fulfill the call in God's way and timing.
HERE IS THE STORY OF HOW THIS ALL BEGAN.
Shocked and Overwhelmed?
I don’t know about you, but I was shocked and overwhelmed at the information given in Part 1. This is the straw that finally broke this camel’s back and hard heart. I had no idea of the genocide taking place all over the world with children. It was the final thing God used to break my heart and birth a ministry I’ve been pregnant with for almost 16 years.
The Long Journey
It’s been a long journey for me of almost 16 years of an ongoing process of being in the wilderness of breaking. I won’t go through all of it at this time, but it was very long, hard, horrible, crushing and except for the grace of God I would have died there and never come out the last day of September, 2006. I wouldn’t wish on anyone of what I had to go through to be at this place in God and ministry at this time in my life. I only pray that from my suffering and wisdom gained during those long years that many others can be helped and won’t have to suffer so long to get to where God wants to get them.
The Blessing of Suffering
Through all the suffering during that long wilderness of preparation God has brought me to a place of great brokenness and humility. What I learned in those 16 years can’t be taught but only experienced. I learned of and experienced His grace, mercy, forgiveness, longsuffering, kindness, correction, edification, healing, deliverance and His power to keep us through all trials as we keep running after Him.
The CD That Broke My Heart and Changed My Life and Ministry Forever
About a year ago I had read an article about a young lady called Jennifer Toledo (now Miller) who had trained 600 children in Africa to do the ministry of Jesus. She then took them into the local hospitals, and they prayed for the sick. From what I can remember of the article I believe 2 or 3 hospitals were emptied because all the sick went home. Jesus had used this anointed young lady in her 20’s to teach these 600 children out of the Bible, the ministry of Jesus and then have them put it to use with great signs and wonders.
Just last month I had watched Sid Roth on the internet and ordered some cd’s about a totally different subject than children. As I searched the site for the series, I saw a cd called “The Weeping Room: Call to Compassion” by Jennifer Toledo. The name really didn’t click but I was strongly led to add that cd to the order. Last week the cd arrived with the rest of my order and as I pulled it out and saw her name and picture, I realized it was the same young lady who had trained those 600 children in Africa.
I put in the cd and right off it began with statistics about the children of the world that really opened my eyes and shook me. As I usually do every morning I got on my face before God to seek His face. He kept putting those stats and children before me and my heart began to break in such a way I cried out, Lord, change my life and ministry into whatever way YOU desire it to be.
I have off and on over the last 16 years been ministering to youth and children. Now we have a youth church just of children in Hilliard, Ohio, USA where we minister 2 or more times a week to over 40 children on the average per week. They are saved, baptized in the Holy Spirit, speaking in tongues and some prophesying. They range for the age of 4 -13 currently. Just last night the Lord had me allow a 9-year-old girl to preach. I helped a little and thought it would be good training and fun for all there. Well, to my surprise the Holy Ghost came just as she had asked Him and took over this 9-year-old as best as He could in ministering through such a young child who has also only been save for 3 months. We were all touched. So, what I thought was for practice and fun turned out to be a move of God through the girl. I had heard of such things, knew it was His will and very possible but never had personally experienced it.
I Wished My Self Accursed
A day or two after God touched my heart and life with the cd message, I was in prayer at the apartment we use for ministry to the children given to us to use. I was praying and pressing into God and began to cry out for the children of the complex and the nations now knowing all that was being done to them. What came out of my mouth next surprised me. “Lord, I wish I were accursed for these children, I wish I were accursed for these children, I wish I were accursed for these children.” Great brokenness and weeping overwhelmed me as I cried out by the Spirit of Intercession. I had many times read what Paul said it in, Romans 9:3 AMP For I could wish that I myself were accursed and cut off and banished from Christ for the sake of my brethren and instead of them, my natural kinsmen and my fellow countrymen.
Every time I’ve read this over all the years of studying the Bible I knew I was so far from ever making a statement like this and really couldn’t comprehend such a love for anyone accept maybe God.
Well, God did the work finally. After almost 16 year of following hard after God in a great and long wilderness of preparation God had broken my heart to the level needed to birth this ministry to the children of the world.
Let’s look at God’s thoughts about children.
Ps 8:2 Out of the mouth of babes and nursing infants
You have ordained strength,
Because of Your enemies,
That You may silence the enemy and the avenger.
Ps 127:3 Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD,
The fruit of the womb is a reward.
4 Like arrows in the hand of a warrior,
So are the children of one’s youth.
5 Happy is the man who has his quiver full of them;
They shall not be ashamed,
But shall speak with their enemies in the gate.
Isa 8:18 Here am I and the children whom the LORD has given me!
We are for signs and wonders in Israel
From the LORD of hosts,
Who dwells in Mount Zion.
Joel 2:28 “ And it shall come to pass afterward
That I will pour out My Spirit on all flesh;
Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy,
Your old men shall dream dreams,
Your young men shall see visions.
Mal 3:5 And I will come near you for judgment; I will be a swift witness Against sorcerers, Against adulterers, Against perjurers, Against those who exploit wage earners and widows and orphans, And against those who turn away an alien— Because they do not fear Me,” Says the LORD of hosts.
Mt 18:1 At that time the disciples came to Jesus, saying, “Who then is greatest in the kingdom of heaven?”2 Then Jesus called a little child to Him, set him in the midst of them, 3 and said, “Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. 5 Whoever receives one little child like this in My name receives Me. 6 “Whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in Me to sin, it would be better for him if a millstone were hung around his neck, and he were drowned in the depth of the sea.
Acts 2:17 ‘ And it shall come to pass in the last days, says God,
That I will pour out of My Spirit on all flesh;
Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy,
Your young men shall see visions,
Your old men shall dream dreams.
Ja 1:27 Pure and undefiled religion before God and the Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their trouble, and to keep oneself unspotted from the world.
Not the Least But the Greatest
I believe most but all the Church today still look at children’s ministry as just one step above the diaper changing ministry in the nursery. It isn't the least of all ministries but one of the greatest and most important ministries of all only second to the salvation of the lost in the world.
I know of a few like Becky Fisher, David and Kathy Walters and Lenny and Tracy LaGuardia who do children's ministry in a whole new and different way. They do it God’s way because they have God’s heart for the children and see that they don’t have a baby Jesus and a baby Holy Spirit but can be used by God as a valuable asset to the Body of Christ and the lost and hurting world. They train the children in the ways of God and the ministry of Jesus and then allow the Holy Spirit to use them under their guidance in worship, prayer, preaching, prophesying and all the gifts of the Holy Spirit.
What We Do
We do the same as mentioned above as well as training them in spiritual warfare and deliverance. Kids will be kids and one minute they will be in the Spirit and the next minute very goofy, but God is still using them in a powerful way. God has diffidently given us a grace to minister in what would seem utter chaos with kids that are mostly unchurched especially in the truth of the Word and things of God. He is raising up these children as mighty warriors of God who will take back their families, friends, schools and generation from the devil and his attempted genocide.
Because of all that God has done in me over all these years and how He used the stats in Part 1 and other resources to open my eyes and break my heart over the children of the world, I must do something about it. God told me to be an advocate for the children of the world. The rest of my life and me being 50 right now will be spent on doing whatever He tells me to do to change what is happening to these children. Whether it is feeding, clothing, shelter, educating and training and equipping in the life and works of Jesus I will now spend and be spent for their sake.
First, get the cd by Jennifer Toledo from Sid Roth’s web site, www.sidroth.org; Jennifer’s site, www.gcmovement.org; Hope for the Nations site, www.hopeforthenations.com and download the Power Point presentation, watch it and show it to your friends and possibly your church. Call Hope for the Nations at 250-712-2007, ask for Teresa and order their book called “On Fragile Feet” for $10; Go to
www.unicef.org and order the study called: The State of the Children 2006 and www.unicef.org/media/files/orphans.pdf. Also see CNN.com - Amanpour: World fails to save Africa's AIDS orphans - Jul 19, 2006*
Second, study, meditate and pray over the stats, information and scriptures asking God to open your eyes and break your heart over the children of the world to the point of where you will take action.
Mt 25:45 Then He will answer them, saying, ‘Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to Me.’